who am I talking to??

i have to go here;

i'm sorry if it may be too much

however this is not about you,

heck its not about me....

and yet it is

This is exactly why I must tell my story.

You are why I must tell my story.

For far too long, you have had your own way.

all the while hindering your own blessing

oh yes you may think its all so good now

but deep down you know,

you KNOW

you

have traded a promise for a lie...

trying to justify

trying to convince others

yet they know

even

they know!

and for those who have accepted the lie,

they do not truly love you.

if they did they would FIGHT for you.

for the truth,

for your freedom!

you have

thoughtlessly traded

your birthright

blind,

lacking in understanding

of what you have given up!

you sold your birthright Esau!

while you have proudly put on a show for the public

pretending,

yet knowing

that you

are settling for an imitation....

though you don't deserve it.

I will fight for your destiny,

because someone fought

for my destiny!

LIKEWISE

where my story left off

I was so close to settling for an imitation.

I deserve better!

I'm so much happier on my own!

I want to be happy!

AND FREE

God doesn't want me to not be happy!

Its time to let go & move on!

There is someone else who will be better!

ME ME ME ME ME ME ME

THIS IS WHERE I WAKE UP.

THIS IS WHERE {THE LORD}

asks

me

the question.

"Do you LOVE me?"

my reply: {of course i do!}

"Do you LOVE me?"

again my reply: {you know I do!}

He softly calls my name....

"emmy"

"Do you LOVE me?"

My heart breaks and tears flow. Because I know what He's asking.

And Because I do love Him.

I sobbingly reply: I can't do it without you Lord.

He holds me close, kisses my face and whispers "I know".