The SOURCE of my JOY

I Chose JOY!

The source of my JOY can be summed up in one powerful word-

It may be infinitely worse to refuse to forgive than to murder, because
the latter may be an impulse of a moment of heat; whereas the former
is a cold and deliberate choice of the heart.

George MacDonald

I did not harden my heart.

It is incredibly hard

for some to understand

how I can

FORGIVE

{yes even the adultress and her pride}

AND be

so thankful

and full of

JOY.

Forgiveness is my weapon.

My pain is valid

and yet

{Forgiveness is the scent that the rose leaves on
the heel that crushes it.}

Forgiveness does not release the offender from walking away

without any

consequences to their choices

consequences are a natural part of life...

however

FORGIVENESS

does release and empower

the one forgiving

The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

-Gandhi

It is a daily CHOICE to forgive.

I know its not easy,

but its possible!

Never does the human soul appear so strong as when is foregoes revenge and dares to forgive an injury.

E.H. Chapin

Because I chose this, JOY happens naturally.

I find favor in places I never knew.

I find favor in the eyes

of

My Love,

{the one that matters most}

True Love NEVER FAILS.

not by my might, but BY YOUR SPIRIT, says the Lord

This photo was taken last year.

It is extremely significant.

It is God showing me WHO he is.

It is one of a series of many prayers being answered.

It is the promise of restoration.

It is the representation of TRUE LOVE.

Before you say or think awwww..

I must tell you this is not that kind of love story!

I wrote this post then

The quote

We are responsible for the stories we tell

& for those we choose not tell.

Our silences speak volumes

about whom & what we value.

-Rabbi SE Sasso

It is my time to tell my story, Gods story!!

My silence then, was only the beginning

of the MOST beautiful LOVE STORY.

It will now speak of whom and what I value.

Two years ago,

the most beautiful thing

happened to me!!!

Adultery

yes i said it was a beautiful thing!

ok not actually

but what came from it was!

The Creator of Love,

showed me the TRUTH of LOVE,

_I thought_

adultery

killed

my marriage.

{insert evil laugh}

IT thought it

destroyed our lives.

and sat laughing at our pain-

delighting in its lust and seduction-

telling lies,

misrepresenting

what Love is,

an imitation

selfish to its very core.

It sold us lies,

that we bought.

_temporarily_

BUT

IT DID NOT.

WIN

{insert JOY & DANCING}

it ONLY MADE

EVERYTHING BETTER!!!!

OH Yah IT DID!

yes, you can believe it.

THIS death

was actually LIFE!

I wouldn't change a moment

since it was exposed.

It contains a strength

that refuses to be silent!

LET THERE BE LIGHT!

Now you may think, this love story

is about my husband and I....

well not really.

Its about the Creator of Covenant.

because he understands how we are made

My Love story,

is that of He,

the

One that is jealous of my LOVE

He loved me in a way

that I can often not comprehend

WHY? OH why?

would this beautiful Creator

value me?

Broken, Flawed & Unfaithful

yes unfaithful to Him....

THAT I AM NO MORE.

the CREATOR showed me

the power of Love

that can destroy strongholds,

that can destroy lies,

that can overcome,

anything.

yes even that!

yes even THIS!

Before you let your mind wander

let me clarify

My unfaithfulness

didn't come in the form of a flesh

it came in a

much more

devious

fashion...

dressed

to the nines..

disguising itself as freedom...

yet it was only

leading me

toward

my

captivity.

Stay tuned

This story will be continued....